Thursday, September 25, 2008

'travel down the road and back again..."

when i was a little girl, blissfully ignorant to the evil in this forsaken world, there was never a shadow of a doubt that i could seek comfort from my Nana. even when she was sick, even when she was dying.
i thank my stars in the heavens above that i had this shelter of true love and compassion. i do not truly believe that i'd be alive today if it wasn't for the love, protection, and sheer compassion that this lady bestowed upon me and my mother.
i recall warm, yellow summer days and evenings with my Nana. i'd be curled up on her loveseat couch with my blankie, a cup of coco mix, a special spoon that was all mine and nobody else's, and a glass bottled coke. i'd be watching the brady bunch, green acres, the cosbys, or that old show i think it was called the crazyhorse saloon, where it had these horribly dressed couples line dancing to atrocious songs like achy breaky heart. but Nana liked it, because it "was good clean fun and the music was good,...not to mention, the dancing was fun to watch too." sooner or later, she'd fall asleep, and i'd turn down the volume and change it to "you can't do that on television." (i wasn't supposed to watch that. see; i was rebellious even then.)
my point is, she always napped on her pillow. it was rectangular, light green, and cross stitched on the front.
for years following her death, i couldn't recall what it said. i'm so glad i eventually recalled what it said:
"friendship is the key to happiness"
and i think that, that couldn't be more true.
i am finding that more than ever, i am realizing the heavy gravity that is the weight and importance of friendships in our lives.
life is fragile. it can be taken in the blink of an eye; just ask dear old pops. my friends are the best. if anything happened to any of them, i would be broken hearted. i would be different, i wouldn't be me.
for every friend i have, they help complete me. one for every color, they each have their place. if i lost one, my kalidescope would be broken. some shine brighter than others, some i do hold more dear. my real friends... i cannot do without.
what i need to thrive are: my grandma, C, the rest of the crazy bunch in my (real) family, and those wonderful idiots i have come to call my BFFs. oh, wait- and OUR doglets. (i am a horrible doggy mommy because i do have a favorite between our two doggies. take a WILD guess which one is my favorite.)

"One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives." ~Euripides, Greek playwrite

"Love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant." ~Unknown

"You can't stay in your corner of the forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes." ~Winnie the Pooh

"When twilight drops her curtain down and pins it with a star, remember that you have a friend though she may wander far."